A personal Note

A Personal Note

I found a letter written by my dad. This letter had been sent years earlier to me. I had refused to accept it. I still remember standing in the post office. I stood with this letter in my hand. I had decided that I was not going to read or accept any more communication from him. I asked the postmaster to refuse the letter. You see, I had always opened my dad's letters hoping they would tell of his return and desire to get the help he so desperately needed. I don't know if it would have changed anything or not if I had accepted this letter then. The point I am making by sharing it now is, I believe I am doing now what my dad asked of me in this letter.

Denise,

I know I was not a good father. In so many ways I failed. But I tried to do what was right and always seem to make a mess of everything I ever did. If I could do it all over again I would try much harder to do better.

Please do not just throw me away as if I don't exist. I know I did you wrong in many ways. I can not change it. It took place. I do not remember a lot of things, just like so much of my childhood.

I tried to show that something was still there when I sent your birthday card and signed it dad.

God Bless you
I do love you
Dad